Many spoilers ahead for Assassin’s Creed 3. Proceed with caution. This discussion will focus mainly on some technical details and the story of the modern assassins. Warnings for discussions on child abuse.
When I first watched this episode, I was a bit weary. Mostly because it’s not a topic I’m particularly keen on. My own personal views on death and the end of the world are uncomfortable and I don’t like thinking about it—let alone talking about it, or watching it on TV. The previews worried me,…
requirements to date me:
- u must be comfortable dressing up as characters i want to smooch
thats about it
I have come to the conclusion that I don’t know if I can handle tomorrow’s episode of Doctor Who.
I’ve been actually feeling really sick about it as the week progressed, and now that the episode is tomorrow, I have the worst feeling of dread.
It’s not just “oh, Amy and Rory are leaving”. Seriously. To be honest, Amy and Rory are not my favorite companions. I try not to play favourites, but I didn’t like them at first. It took a lot of rewatches to appreciate them. I don’t blame the characters either. So it’s not OMG MY FAVES ARE LEAVING. It’s not that. (Though again, I reiterate, I do like them quite a bit now.)
It’s not just that this will involve River Song, who, despite being a problematic character, I love dearly and just adore. We don’t know what is going to happen to River tomorrow or this season, but I’ve always felt invested in her story line. The idea that she is losing her parents tomorrow night in some way is, indeed, heart-breaking to me. And seeing her interact with The Doctor again means there could be even more hurting.
But no, it’s not just all that. Because don’t get me wrong- I love the Ponds. All of them. And while I’m scared for them, they aren’t what could ultimately break my heart.
It’s The Doctor.
I haven’t seen a ton of spoilers, but from what I’ve seen this season, and as I’ve said in my various commentaries on the episodes this season (namely A Town Called Mercy), The Doctor is headed for trouble in a big way. Are we to see The Oncoming Storm? I can’t imagine seeing the Time Lord Victorious. I don’t think his rage is what is going to break him. I think it’s all his losses. We’ve watched him lose so much.
After the Time War and losing everything, he regenerated and was healed through Rose as his companion. After losing Rose, he found friendship in Martha and Donna. After losing Donna (and The Master, again), he really lost himself, and it led to another regeneration. Loss is a constant catalyst for him changing, both physically and emotionally. After regenerating, little Amelia saved him. As Eleven, he’s been a strange mix of silly childlike, and brooding thousand-yard stare. Somehow Matt Smith, who is young, manages to often depict just how OLD The Doctor is. How broken he can be.
So far this season we’ve seen him retain so much of his child-like wonder (Dinosaurs?! On a spaceship?!) and yet we’ve seen that he’s cracking under the weight of loss, and being alone with his demons. Amy recognized it, just as other companions had before her. And I see it too.
It breaks my fucking heart.
And I think he’s going to get his heart broken, again. Tomorrow night.
I just don’t think I’ve ready for that, again.
